Room 615 of the Fairmont Orchid, Hawaii, Thursday, Early Evening

[angelo_wings]

Rinoa was nervous, as she sat down on the edge of Sookie's bed. She was letting someone into her head. Willingly. The thought of it made her want to flee the room, in panic.

She took a deep breath and reminded herself that this had been her idea. Well. Sookie's, originally, but she'd been the one to seek her out about it, today. And if this helped, maybe she'd get some actual, restful sleep. It had been fragments and nightmares ever since the Lunatic Pandora.

"You're sure Bobby won't mind?" Rinoa asked. Since he was being left out of his room for a few hours. Clearly, that would be a traumatic experience for him. And one that meant they should cancel the entire experiment.

(For one. Bobby modded out with permission zomg. That Sookie is going into Rinoa's head is fine for broadcast, but any details that might come out should please be NFB?)

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[angelo_wings]

Rinoa nodded, unable to meet her friend's eyes. "She ... meshed us together, somehow," she said. Which happened to be true. "I just ..."

She couldn't keep up the pretense, but she couldn't let the truth slip, either. And now she was lying to a friend who had been helping her. Everything was wrong. She wasn't sure it could be right again, either.

"You can't tell Squall," she said, abruptly. "Please?"

Squall would ... he wouldn't understand. He was SeeD. He belonged with Garden. He'd listen to Cid, and Quistis, and everyone else. It was too risky. She knew that, instinctively.

She didn't think to question the source of that 'instinct,' either.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

And now she believed her even less, particularly with that request. "I...okay, but why not?" she asked softly. "Can we get those pieces of her out? I'll need a stronger telepath to help me, or maybe...I don't know, there's magic from your world that can help? But why can't we tell Squall?"

[angelo_wings]

"He's ... it's SeeD," she said, taking a deep breath. "It's just ... he's ... his loyalties are going to be messy, for this. It's complicated."

She didn't even understand all of it.

"I'll tell him, eventually. If it's safe. They ... they don't trust Sorceresses, back home. There are groups against us. I'd be putting him in a horrible position and I ... I can't."

There. That was it. She'd be putting him in a bad position. That must be it; it felt right. Good.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

"Sweetie, I'm sure your loyalties lie with you," Sookie said, frowning at her. "It's not like he doesn't know what you are, right?"

[angelo_wings]

"He knows," she said. "He does. But he hasn't thought this through. It's going to be ... it's messy. Cid was Edea's knight. And Cid had to lead all of Garden against her. When it was bad. Garden is his family. It won't ... I can't ..."

He would hurt her. He would turn against her. He wanted to destroy her. She knew that, in a way she never had before. She couldn't possibly trust him. Anyone but him.